“It is forbidden to forbidden” – Unknown
The gray card teaches me about how I am “wired”, that is, a black/white personality. Having a “GrayCard” reference is the best assurance that the digital pictures that you capture will have the ability to be properly White Balanced.
A friend said that I said ” I would rather be right than feel good”. Hum… anyway, that is, how I think. My default setting seems to be “my way or the highway”. This attitude does not lend itself to a coachable heart or meaningful relationships (shrink speak for taking relationships hostage)
A struggle staying a learner in Photography as well an aficionado extraordnaire with PhotoshopCS3. This attitude unchecked, spirals down to a mental posture of; “All or nothing” then to “perfectionism” (a self-centered fear of being criticized ) then to analysis and finally paralysis of my heart. Or the “chosen frozen”.
All my creative juices are locked. The root of all this is self centered fear, plain and simple. Of course there could be some “potty training issues” (shrink speak for going through puberty at age 62), etc, etc. All this can be reflected in all aspects of my life.
For one example. I was told that I can become a sanctimonious pharisee in 24 hours.
Myself a orthodox Christian in heart and mind, I can quickly swim in *religious fundamentalism and not the fundamentals of the Christian faith.
It has been a painful journey to migrate to the “gray zone”.
I am enclosing an illustration of how some of this plays out in my mind, some of the times.
The truth is; I am not balanced, I need others to balance me and show me a more excellent way.
Affectionately Ken
*-”Us four and no more”, attitudes of elitism, spiritual pride, spiritual arrogance, worship of church doctrine and not the person of Jesus, and performanced based faith.
